I've been tryin' so hard to survive
Sometimes I think that I wanna die
I feel so ******* guilty 'cause God I'm so lucky to live my life
So I keep all the pain to myself
Losin' faith but nobody can tell
Mom I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me
So I pretend I'm fine
If you only knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry it's true oh
If you only knew
All the **** my brain is puttin' me through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
I'm sorry but I need you oh
If you only knew
I wish I was somebody else
I'm constantly overwhelmed
Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends
It's a silent cry for help
I wanna get better I want you to know
That I can't do this on my own
If you only knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry it's true oh
If you only knew
All the **** my brain is puttin' me through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
I'm sorry but I need you oh
Take me out of this hell
Oh somebody help
Take me out of this hell
Oh I'm not myself
I wanna tell you
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry but I want to
Oh if you only knew